What fucking ever

Every second that passes, filled with hate and regret, bad choices running through your head over and over and again. Hating yourself for making stupid fucking decisions- knowing what the result will be yet you make the wrong turn again and again, expecting a different outcome - yet the path stays the same and you knew this even before you made the stupid wrong fucking choice again. How many times can you make the same mistake and how long before you see that the lessons you learn on this path stay the same but no, genius is imprinted in your entire being, your whole existence up until now has been a fucking rollercoaster ride-life & death, addiction & detox, relapse & recovery, being loved & the all off a sudden the center of all hate, good intentions with bad outcomes & then my favorite good morals & values being pissed on by those who think they are better & know more than u because of having money and status but surprise motherfuckers money and status doesn't buy experience and knowledge and in reality experience and knowledge are much more valuable than gold and$5000 suits but the ignorance education implants into us from before we can think for ourselves teaches us different- it fills our heads with lies and status as where it should teach us the truth (that is out there for anyone looking for it if you look long enough it will find you) morals and values and most importantly of all to think for ourselves and not kill our curiosity by filling our heads with garbage that about 90% of us will never ever use again but if u turn out to be a free thinker most of what u call society will push u to the side and mark u an outcast and trust me that's not a bad thing cause the less u hear about shopping an gossip and some sport team that never wins & the less u engage in the media(i haven't watch TV for more than 10yrs cause they sell u utopias and perfect worlds that will never exist and advertisements that convince u to buy shit you don't need) the more time you have to think for yourself and have epiphanies about life, the universe & everything else, everything else that is really important and being an outcast isn't that bad I promise you, I've been one for years and the self-discoveries I've made no TV or newspaper will ever allow you to know and a added bonus is that you only have yourself to trust and depend on because most people are either very false or have hidden agendas and if u disappoint anyone its yourself and no one else...
Just a thought-use it, don't use it - I can't make your choices for you although that box in your house u stare mindlessly for hours at end has no problem making them for you.

'we don't need no education, we don need no thought control- all and all you just another brick in the wall-teachers leave our kids alone!' pink Floyd