Should I care or just sit and stare?

Just trying to move forward in this sick and twisted fucking world, knowing and realizing that I'm not from this world but just in it, thrown into the deep end of a ocean of shit, hate and greed and trying so hard to swim yet every time you reach the surface some motherfucker just pulls you down again and this sink or swim gets quite tiring after years and years of struggling, there is always something or another standing in the way of your succeeding, understanding that the mountains in the way got put there for you to learn lessons and grow through the hard times but when in the name of god is it going to end, how much does one person person have to learn - a life starting with more shit than any child should ever have to cope with followed by 15 years of bad choices and addiction to the worst of substances, yet I'm still standing and trying to move forward and I'm not planning on giving up or let any of this shit get me down again. Stupid, stubborn, fed up or just fucking strong? The choice is yours to make, the answer I already know- a bit of all the above but a lot of the last mentioned cause all this shit I went through built strength of character like you can never imagine and gave me a new purpose of being and existence and through all the shit that gets tossed in my direction I'm just getting stronger and stronger, how strong does one person have to be and what is all this preparing me for? My opinion? Something big, not just big...gigantic. You'll just have to wait and see and remember as I've learnt, patience is a virtue....


'So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters'

Metallica - nothing else matters