More than lost

Every dark cloud has a silver lining? There's always light at the end of the tunnel? If there were no downs in life you would never notice or appreciate the ups? Always telling everyone to live by these stupid fucking cliches yet when im down & completely fucked I can't or even don't want to see the sense in any of this shit. When your heart gets ripped out of your chest, if the person who you love more than life chooses not to be in your life anymore and denies her true feelings for you then you don't want to hear any of this positive crap the world sells to you like crack and like a stupid fucking addict you just ignore all reason and logic and go back for more and more and more no matter what the cost,its the same with love lost and doubting that you'll ever get that very special and amazing person back in your life-you'll run head first into that brick wall over and over again just expecting a different result(i believe that is Einstein's explanation of insanity)but isn't that what love and being in love does to you-it makes you temporarily insane cause you also forget about all reason and logic and just focus on what your bleeding, aching heart wants completely ignoring all the facts and all the harsh realities surrounding fucking yourself up emotionally and just prolonging the pain and at the end of the day that what used to uplift you is now pulling you down to the point of losing your fucking mind trying to regain the most perfect love and happiness you once shared with that one special person you would do anything for, just wishing somewhere deep inside they still feel the same or that they still remember the good intentions you have or the true and pure love you felt for each other and the way you touched each others lives in the most amazing ways, ways words can't even express-the right words have not been invented yet and only two people who has shared the most amazing and purest love would know what I am talking about, an intimate experience shared through love and understanding so intricate and so amazing and yet at the end of the day so easily fucked up by sad and miserable people who can't stand it to see other people enjoying this experience, bad judgement and bad choices. Its a known fact that the universe is in perfect balance and always balances itself out but this is just fucked up-how can something so pure and amazing be followed by so much hate, anger and hostility and the worst part of it all is that it is all so fucking unnecessary, how can two people that shared the purest and most amazing experience life has to offer end up so far apart and the only thing keeping them apart is the people that claim to have their happiness and best interest at heart. How much can you love someone if you are willing to take their happiness away in order for you to be happy, parents are not concerned about the well being of their children, they are too concerned about their own peace of mind to give a continental blue fuck about their children or not even to mention their children's happiness cause you must really be selfish if you are willing to emotionally blackmail your children to get your own way and peace of mind. I understand they want to protect them but at what cost, the cost of their choice, free will and choice and yet they claim to care, yes they care but only about themselves. I also understand they want the best for them but would they rather have them give up on their dreams to be in an emotionally dead an unhappy financially secure relationship at the cost of their happiness so that the parents can have peace of mind of would the rather have them experience true love and happiness and let life and following there passions take care of the rest. In a system based on money and rules that make no sense to me the even the first option makes no sense to me but hey that's just me and I hope for the sake of this civilization there are more people out there that think and act like me cause non are as hopelessly enslaved as those who falsely believe they are free...

'Your cruel device,
Your blood like ice.
One look could kill,
My pain, your thrill.

I wanna love you, but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains.

Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace on sweat

I hear you callin' and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin
I wanna kiss you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

One look, could kill
My pain, your thrill.

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

Runnin' deep inside my veins
Burnin' deep inside my veins
Poison'

Alice cooper - poison