Deeper than u thought?

What the fuck else is there left to do, the whole world sux & everything seems so fucking blue, crying in the rain, really experiencing the pain, cut so fucking deep the fleshwound u don't even feel, yet the pain & hurt in your life is fucking real, really, really experiencing every second of it, and unfortunately you're not numbing it out a bit, doing your best to try to forget but the only thing harder is living with the regret, the first ever in your life ever - always trying to be clever asshole and then one day you find yourself in a deep fucking hole, and for more than half your life you gave up your soul, one of those scars that never heal and trust me the pain is real, the longer you numb it out the more you forget what its really about, but what if u learn from this whole process? Did u in anyway really progress. Move forward in any way, while u through a whole big part of yourself away? But what if the pain of all the experiences were too much for you to really be able to cope, they say hope is a bad thing but will it be really wrong to hope? That finally, once and for all - just maybe one day, all this shit you brought over and into your life would just fuck off and go away!!!


'Now I lay me down to sleep
Pray the lord my soul to keep
And if I die before I wake
Pray the lord my soul to take'

Metallica - enter the sandman