running out of ideas

every day its just getting worse and worse, this addiction process to
reverse. getting back 2 the original me, so that 4 once i can just b.
not having 2 worry about my financial state or always being fucking
late, for anything and everything i always do and always being the
only 1 i screw, over and over again, why, where and when? first you
have 2 use 2 take the sick away and then i can worry about the rest of
the day.