Stuck in bad luck - fuck a duck!

Ive litterally been stagnent and stuck in this same space for 17 years, caught and held hostage by my worst and deepest fears. How the fuck do you snap off and break these fucking chains? Thats how intricately you tied yourself up due to not being able let go, adapt and change. Everything that hurt knocks you down to a level lower than your previous zero, sometimes it feels like getting out of this you need to be a superhero. Or it would be nice if for a change life stopped tossing shit at you, but until then: what the fuck can you do???
Life is always and forever a fucking fight and then you get to a point where things just start coming right, then once again out under your feet the rug gets ripped, its not even your fault and you cant even lie and say you got tripped. One curveball after the other gets tossed in your direction and thats the story of my fucking life and its true reflection. Of this vicious fucking cycle i need to get out, start believing i can do this, without a doubt...

'Now you sit there thinking feeling insecure. The mocking court gesture (jester) claims there is no proven cure. Go back to your chamber, your eyes upon the wall 'Cos you got no one to listen, you got no one to call'

Rodriguez - Jane S. Piddy