What the fucking hell!????????

Without actually looking for it you'll always find a fucking excuse, any reason 2 forget about logic and then once again you go and fucking use, always lying to yourself, literally all the bloody time, justifying it with things like: if no-one knows its not a crime, once your mind is inclined that way, nothing will make your bad thoughts stray, while you are busy counting your money, in the back of your mouth you can taste the bittersweet honey, after the first hit follows the most beautiful warm glow and then out the window does all that's bad and negative go? Everyone knows you cant take away your pain and sorrow but if it's helping for now so we can stress about it again tomorrow. For now just focus on not focusing on anything, well nothing that any bad vibes will bring, sadly - what goes up must come down and that always causes a huge motherfucking frown but fortunately what goes down only has to recover and sometimes a bit of yourself you'll also discover...so what the fuck am I actually trying to say? drugs will temporarily take your problems away? Quite sadly its not always and forever though - just till the next time you lose yourself and then that one huge hit you throw, then there in the back of your mind again for a while but I promise you when they come back they hit you over the head again with a style - magnified times a million and one and that's the part of being sober that's not too much fun. But sometime or another all this shit you'll have to face so rather pick yourself up and do it with grace than crawling out of a huge heap of shit and the saddest reality is that u created it. Now who would b idiotic enough to create all this chaos and destruction in their own life, how the fuck can u b stupid enough to be the creator of all this strife?

'the child is grown
The dream is gone
And I have become
Comfortably numb'

Comfortably numb - Pink Floyd