N A 12 step program

So desperate you get that you actually go down on your knees, 1stly screaming and cursing the heavens and then begging for strenght and forgiveness: PLEASE! You've already seen and experienced where this road you take is going; but that gives you no reason for even thinking about slowing. Is it stupidity, fucked up or are you just plain naive? Well you must be fucking stupid to think that at this pace anything in your life you'll achieve...
Every single fucking day you promise yourself that this is it - but every afternoon you find yourself catching on the same old shit! After years and years of doing the same thing over and over it should get boring, i mean about 10 times a day for 10 years should leave you snorring? But no! When your rhythem and habit falls back into that old gear, that is when for your sanity you should start to fear...
Psycho babbeling, words of wisdom or just a warning, i dnt know? just reflect back on your life and a bad memory or two will to you the answers show...

'girl you know i'd be a liar, if i was to say too you: girl we couldn't get much higher...'

The Doors - light my fire