Happy fucking 32nd birthday

32 years old; fuck thats quite cold! So ho much have you actually achieved, in how much different shit have you believed. Youve been fucked out of your mind more than what you've bn kind - actually thats not true; but its close i promise u. Ive lied more than i ull ever know; god im so good @ it it doesnt even show. Dont know if ive bought or sold more drugs in my life, but i can promise u its been rife. Been on the streets twice in my life and thats not even the beginning of the strife. From the day my mom died when i was seven; fuck after tht life was heaven. An abusive alcoholic for a dad, boy was that asshole sad, his whole life rotated around the bottle and beating the shit out of me and the fucked up part is that not even the neighbours did see. And when you are to young to know right from wrong then out of fear to cover it up you lie along. Not understanding there is another way and outbursts of violence is just the order of the day? Hate and fear was all i knew and then i met you. An angel with a heart of gold; from the first second my heart was sold. You showed me that there is acually still good in this world of hate and fear - everything was always better when you are near. So atleast i was fortunate to meet my twin flame and know i know its just a rceipe for pain. Im sorry i fucked it up so bad and at the end of the day im the one being sad. I really love you with all my heart and never ever guessed we would ever be apart. But i understand that to everyone it is wrong, just the thought of where im from. Yet i turned my life around for you and then what did i go and do. Fucked it up in every single way and making myself out to be an ass in more than one display. So what else can i say than happy fucking 32nd birtday!

' if it makes you happy, it cant be that bad - if it makes you happy why the hell are you looking so sad' sheryl crow - if it makes u happy