Fucking insane

Really trying soooo fucking hard to stay sane and stay clean, i mean how long has it been? Technicalities we'll quickly move out the way and then look at the fucking happenings of the day. I mean what the fuck are you thinking you cunt and im talking a big one, do you really even consider it as being romantic or fun...
I saw a dude selling spiks on the sideline, and immediately i wanted to make one of those badboys mine. Even made a plan to get it the next day, cause you asked but for free he didnt want to give one away. So all excited and bright eyed you ran home, huge smile plastered from ear to ear, but if you think about it: this is one bad fucking choice you have to fear...
Cause if i cook up again and take a hit, i promise you: that will be it. A deep fucking downward spiral is what youll get caught up in again really fast, and then youll still make the badboy last. And then after a week or two of shooting up? This story will not have a happy ending and you yourself again you will so hectically corrupt...

'He couldn't believe how easy it was, he put the gun into his face: bang! (so much blood from such a tiny little hole).
Problems do have solutions you know, a lifetime of fucking things up, fixed in one determined flash'

NIN - The Downward spiral