If it doesnt concern you then you probably dont give a fuck at all; and if it does then you're probably running out of time before your next fucking case of withdrawel. I dont even know what the fuck i am saying, my whole reality is wobbling and I am so badly straying. Just know how i fucking hate this monkey on my back, its nearly as bad as my ex-lover: smoking crack...
Just getting worse and worse every single fucking day and there is nothing poitive about this shit in any way. Just sitting, sweating, craving and rocking your body back to front, god, im such a stupid fucking idiot and a little cunt. A fucking week ago i was clean and sereen, and now this serious case of fucking out - eish! its mean...
'I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel. I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real. The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting. Try to kill it all away but I remember everything.What have I become? My sweetest friend. Everyone i know goes away in the end'
NIN - Hurt
Listen to "Hurt" sung by Johnny Cash, his version is really powerful.
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