U can really get rid of this shit by making one simple choice and sticking with your fucking decision, always and forever just barely keeping your head above water in this huge motherfucking sea of doubt, always and forever the same, stress, hate, anger and fear but fear of what? Fear of a new life maybe? How the fuck does that make sense? All this complicated and unnecessary shit you are drowning in can disappear with one single choice, or actually more of a simple understanding of that single choice, its actually quite simple if you look at it logically - get busy living or continue dying, wait let me rephrase the last part of that sentence, rather call it - continue with this slow romantic suicide of yours. To no one it will make sense that you are fearing success and normality but its not the success and the normality that you are fearing, its the failure of not ever achieving it, not being able to really detach yourself completely from your misery and unhappiness; far enough to truly be free and enjoy the simpler pleasures life has 2 offer - how can someone living to the max every second of every day of his life now all of a sudden slow down to something always observed as mediocre? And you thought you were confused, and then again the simple question emerges...what the fuck?
"There is no dark side of the moon really. Matter of fact it's all dark." - Pink Floyd - eclipse