Sunday 1 January 2012

What fucking ever

So how fucked up do u really think you are; talk about reflection and re-opening the scar, deeper than what any wound into flesh can ever be, and only if you've ever experienced it will you be able to agree; uncetainty weighing you down every second of every single fucking day, pushing you and shouting your uncerainties & insecurities out to you every step of the way...

Always talking about this annoying monkey on your back, god dammit: its worse than the cravings you get when you rum out of crack. And that's a feeling to u no-one you can desribe in any way and wanting to experience it is a game i suggest you dont play. So how the fuck do you gain the experience and the knowledge, come on man - that's not shit you can learn in college. Gettting stonger is a long motherfucking process and there is no guarantee of success. I'm serious - some of the shit life throws at you, and in that 1 moment of weakness you dont know what to do. It knocks you down to the ground head first and that's just the beginning cause it just gets worse. After that it kicks you in the nuts; then it spits & kicks you untill you spew out your fucking guts. You think its just gonna leave you there? Fuck bru - the universe about your feelings doesn't care. Not in a very bad & negative way cause to get strong your dues you must pay. Give me another kick or two to make me stronger; not that i want the suffering to last longer but the moment its over and done, i suppose then again life can be fun.
How fucking strong do you want me to be cause after all this pain and suffering, i cant wait to see.

'a long december and theres reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last' - counting crows - a long december

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