'Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds' -
Bob Marley - Redemption song
Monday, 27 August 2012
Hollow, empty and completely out of place, body feels like liquid, brain like mush and a mask for a face. Edgy, skittish and so fucking tense. Tired, fed up, fucked up and over having my balls in this wrench. One fucking decision, one simple fucking choice and just sticking with it for once; god im a dumbfuck, how much more shit do i still want to munch. To the bottom of this deep dark pit im pulling myself over and again, for fuck sakes im so freaking far away from my zen. Really have to move closer to myself very soon and fucking fast, put in effort and make a fucking point to make it last. Cant feel like this for another day and how much furher can i still throw my fucking life away. I need to sort my fucking head out and get it straight - before my time is up and its too fucking late...
'The only Zen you can find on the tops of mountains is the Zen you bring up there.'