Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Sooo fucking over it?

Tired of being over life, tired of all this stupid shit, tired of giving love yet fearfully holding on for fear of losing it, over being the cunt in every single story, over being the topic of discussion, tired of not understandind but not gonna give up trying to. Tired of fighting for things that are mine yet it gets denied, tired of every fucking person dissing me for reasons known to no one but then, tired...i promise you im sooo fucking tired of being tired but...
I think im more annoyed, annoyed at life for giving but then again for taking more, annoyed at people that cant see common sense yet judging you, annoyed at the distance to the finish line and not coming any closer, annoyed with everything and everyone for being shallow and selfish, annoyed at people not even trying to understand what the fuck is up with life, annoyed at every stupid motherfucker out there for promising and not delivering, yet soooo fucking annoyed at myself for having to go against every rule ever made just to survive and fucking intensely annoyed at myself for being so fucking annoyed all the time...
Yet i think im also way fucking over, over lifes little pettinesess over everything, over not being able to get what i deserve, over not feeling love but always giving it, over meds, over situations, over circumstance, over every fucking raw hand that i dealt to myself, over darkness, over light, over life, over fearing death yet praying for it, over misunderstandings and detoxes, over being over fucking everything...
Yet im grateful for?

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