Saturday, 18 February 2012

Another bulet the head?

Sitting and chilling with my eyes rolling back in my head, if you know the drill then that's enough said? Can you see how gently H took you by the hand and so warm and gently to the gates of hell you got lead, and when you're broke, everything around you is fucked and your life is one huge regret; and then you still have this fucking bad habit that constantly needs too be fed.
Your true self?...Really long ago you started to forget, i used to be so chilled and relaxed - but now it doesn't take much to make me see red. When at 1st you oh so casually started using; too yourself and evryone you always promised 'never this shit will i start abusing?
Never ever am i touching a needle i'll rather chase or schnarf this shit instead; and now you're intraveniously feeding this monster inside your head - and worse and worse it get with every fucking hit, yet every time you shoot you know that you are only making bigger all this shit. these days after eventually a fucking vein you get - it looks like someone all over you bled.
Completely powerless and caught in addictions' perfectly spun net. You've been so fuckedup that you even took a chance and fled - but you can take my word for it that I was the biggest and worst threat and apparently this battle is only over once u r fucking dead?
Fuck that shit! Im aint going through this fucking life with no ball and chain - cause god dammit that shit would drive me even more the fuck insane. I can promise you that you can just the fuck let let go, and to all these fucking text-books and statisticts i will show: out above the rest i will majestically tower, take back everything i threw away including all my strenght, energy and power!

'Don't dwell on what has passed away. Or what is yet to be.
Ah, the wars they will be fought again. The holy dove, she will be caught again. Bought and sold and bought again. The dove is never free. Ring the bells that still can ring. Forget your perfect offering. There is a crack, a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in'

Leonard Cohen - Anthem

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