Fucked up

You can actually see how the two xtremes compare: addiction is pretty fucked up and reality is quite the scare. The little things you take note of in your life: if that's what you want to call it, cause from where im standing everythng is quite shit. Everything, and i mean everything starts coming right when you sort your life out: and you really start to see what life is really about...
But then for some stupid and undiscribable, stupid idiotic fucking reason, against yourself you commit the highest of treason. You have absolutely no fucking reason whatsoever to fall, its been longer than a year since your last withdrawel. And yet you are absolutely certain of the snowball effect thats gonna take place after this one hit is in the past, you know all of this; every single detail, yet you still do it and once again fuck yourself hard and solid in the arse...

'Everybody believes in something and everybody, by virtue of the fact that they believe in something, uses that something to support their own existence.' - Frank Zappa