Beethoven

You stupid fucking dumb shit, you don't gamble with your happiness and that is it! Messing around and throwing your whole fucking life away, and to you it's funny - like a game you play. Fucking around more and more every step u take, depriving yourself from your support system wth every fucked up choice u make...
So when and where is all this shot gonna stop? Once you're in prison or your heart stops beating and dead you just drop. You have to stick to your the choice to turn all this shit around, altho i promise you that is much harder to do than what i make it sound, so what the fuck can i do? Try myself not so hard to screw...?Kicking myself in the nuts on a daily bases, turning into one of those typically paranoid and completely fried nutcases. So your choices are actually quite simple and its basically just living or dying? There is no point in meddling over it or even waste energy by sitting and crying. I mean its really not such a hard fucking choice you are making? And when you make the right one and you get up the whole world is yours for the taking...

'Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.' - Jim Morrison