Sunday, 12 February 2012

Heroin addict

Being addicted to something just to feel normal - what a fucking waste, even more fucked up is using - just to have in your mouth that fucking vial and disgusting taste: and the very first time you tasted it; it really tasted like fucking shit - I tasted it, threw up & that was about it, so horrible that taste was that I blew chunks for more than an hour, and still after that for two days you had no strenght, energy or power...
It's like the H is warning you: DONT fuck with me! And one by one your friends fell into the ababiss and that with your own eyes you did see. But there suffering wasn't enough to give you a scare, no i was too fucking naive and arrogant to care? Promising yourself that only once in six months this shit you'll use, six monts later you were already at the stage of hectic fucking addiction and abuse...
Rub out your eyes and it is 10 years later and if you compare it to all the other addictions you've been through smack is definately the grater. Schnarfing, earthing, popping or free-basing, the shooting up also came after gettting no more satisfaction from chasing. But then again the effects of shooting up also quickly dissapear, and if u havn't yet; NOW is the time to fear...
Whilst chasing you were constantly having yourself to 'fix' before the last sand through the hour-glass would fall, cause the moment the time is done you are stuck with a shit reality called withdrawel. And that is one fucking place you dont want too be - ive been there a thouand times and its one of those places you really don't have to see. Yet you got caught and ended up walking through hell but fortunately you got, through and now to help others your story to tell...

'I bought a gun and chose drugs instead.'
Kurt Cobain - Nirvana

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