Why?

As weird, crazy, bizzare as it may sound addiction is the 1 thing I cant wrap my head around. From starting to get cravings, full blown hell and even years after withdrawel, there is not one single piece of sense in it @ all. U dnt need an excuse no reson is required; one moment of weakness and before you can slam on the brakes - once again you are sooo fucking wired...
Completely totally and utterly screwed in a single second, this thing driving your addiction is something with to be reckond. How in one moment everythg can be so fucking perfect and evrythings going so fucking well? And only when you are face first in the shit you realise how hard you actually fell. And only then do you realize how fucking stupid and ignorant you've been; and so much ealier the big red flashing warning lights you should've seen...
So how and why do you convieniently forget all this shit that herion into your life once again will bring, and why the fuck can't you learn to control or maybe even just train this thing, because you can't run - you definatelycannot hide, cause this thing is manifesting and festering from the inside. You just have to get up with a force and about it be fucking head-strong; and take this sick and twisted cock-sucker called addiction down; head on...

'Drugs are a bet with your mind' - Jim Morrison