Pain or insane

So much unnecasary hurt and so much of lifes' excruciating pain, fucking you hard and each blow; just driving u closer and closer to going completely insane. So what the fuck do you do when there is nothing to numb it out or just even to make it go adrift, and when i say NOTHING - i mean not even a fucking teeny tiny little spliff.
Now with harsh fucking reality of life you are fighting, and i promise you that this bitch really knows about biting! All your weakness and cracks it will expose, and all your buried pain & demons? It will make sure that they have properly arose...
Haunting you from early in your early morning anxiey wake up call, or your midday throught the roof; right to the top. Followed by by a hectically long face straight into the fucking ground fall. I promise u that facing all this shit when you are sober IS NOT FUN! Sometimes you just want to get up and as fast as those scrawny little legs of yours can carry you and start to RUN! And then night time comes and its just you alone with millions and millions of thoughts constantly just running and roaming thru your mind, and its such a huge pity that not one of them is the good or positive kind...

'Now I lay me down to sleep, Pray the lord my soul to keep, And if I die before I wake, Pray the lord my soul to take'

Metallica - Enter the Sandman