Saturday, 5 May 2012

101

Annoyed: everything and everyone is working on your tits but you're keeping it in, quiet and still...
Rage: with the speed of light inside you its building and building until...
Agression: all you want to is break, kick and throw thing and then find someone to kill...
Pain: gives the agresion some more edge and gives you extra drive and power of will...
Valium: without even thinking you rather pop one so you forget about all this unnecasary shit and just sit and chill...

Problem: this valium buzz is quite shapeless and pretty useless on its own...
Contemplate: dont tempt fate rather just leave the heroin the fuck alone...
Fight: it started the second you impulsively took take that valium and that you shudve known...
Battle: a part of yourself beating you on all the weaknesses that to it you have shown...
War: its not about winning or losing but about how smart and strong which part of you has grown...

Bullshit: dont blame your weaknesses for the stupid fucking choices you make...
Time: now, the present, this second is the best time for this routine aka fucked up habit/addiction to break...
Awakening: you need someone that can grab you, slap you and give you a good fucking shake...
Choice: to stick to it is a completely different fucking ballgame than what it is to make...Recovery: the point where all this above-mentioned shit is over, your outta your nightmare, still in hell but aleast you are awake...

'Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.'
Buddha

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