Suffering 101

Suffering 101, similiar to the addiction process: fuckall fun. It completely sucks dick! Cant get out - you must be exremely thick? Losing time cause you cant stop meddling in your own shit, all you need to do is let go and that is about it. Yet its so much easier said than done, you cant let go of the root cause why everything in your life is so fucking wrong...
From morning to night. There is fuckall in your life that is right. So much drama on a miliion levels plus one, and away from all this shit you cant even run. Impossible to run away from yourself and about it there is nothing you can do? Cause at the end of the day of everyone yourself hardest you did screw. Over and over hard and repeatedly; you knew excactly where it was gonna end up but you were to fucking clever to see...
Only when you were halfway down the fucking abyss, spending hours in the bathroom just to take a piss. No sleep, just nodding and dreaming every night; realising you havnt taken a dump for a month kinda gave me a fright. So caught up in this making a mission and chasing a fucking fix all day long, you dont even realise your life fell apart and long ago everything already went wrong...
Preoccupied with shit and thats about it...


'Even in the presence of others he was completely alone.'

Robert M. Pirsig - Zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance